clarity

yes do i have that..some times i wonder,clarity that things i can do and i want to do. sometimes i live in confusion.now i am getting that. what i wnat to do..in the next five years. from now i want to genarate certain amount..so that i will give me certain freedom from what i want to pursue..in life.
see when i am..sitting in..clinic..i wonder i am losing lot of personal life..which is very important..for me to continue good personal life.
now i dont have one. really i felt about it.
i dont attend any functions simply i have no time to do that. i am not satisfied with what govt is giving to me. so i am sitting at clinic..to earn that extra amount..so sad.
i just need to come out of this suit case life. i must have my own life..where i do lot of travel, see different places..do a lot of creative work..at my own will.&leisure.do lot of charity which i canot afford right now. baiscallyspend time with my parents health,my kids education.have fun at beach with family in the evening.
now i am not having any of them. hope it changes..
i must make sure that i earn enough so that i no longer need to spend my valuable time in the evening with clinic. i must make my life worthy living.

stop bother about any thing but my self.

today i found myself..miserable..i hope i am not regretting decisions taken say 18yrs..back. it all changed..exactly 18yrs..back. now i am in middle age blues..where lots of hair lost, pot belly appears..grey hair sprouts..on the remaining plate!
no goal..no agenda for a living.
i am frustated about.....what i am doing right..now.
i want to shout at roof tops..that i want to be....just be happy. n o burdens.no family tensions. no patriotic gingos. just take deep look at my self.
i am doing too many things just for others. i am not doing for myself.dont know really what i am doing..
is there any thing in the world whre you get recognition to your work..as well as money to make a decent living.
i made errors 18 yrs ago..by deciding that i want to stand for the change of society.
i finally realized..that there is no force enough to change the society. every body contributes their own way for a change.
it is me to have close look at my self..AND CHANGE..
society will change on its own..but to lose perspective of my aim and do lots of foolish things..spending my self idle..is not moving any where.
from to day after 18yrs..of dicussion, debate, with in my slef.i declare my self to change. and set my own goals.
stop bother about any thing but myslef.

market mayhem

market contiues its mayhem. while small investor is crushed mercilessly...many pulling the money from market for ipos and mfs. any way it is circulation time..money will flow like any thing. i hope it wont spiral any inflation.any way i beleive people are more active now a days.so this is a welcome change. so they are hoping equity market change their lives. so do i. i bought 1000 shares of cybermate infotech ...hoping it would bring me more laurels..let us see where it goes!and hope for the best..

yo! a new year

another new year...
i hope this year is as smooth as any one year..
lots happened in the past year. this si the year i think we achieve 10 percent..gdp and hopefully sustain..it for a decade.stock market is booming. indian rupee is raising. i hope the oil is stable.[most optimistic]less taxes on us..from gvt. more emphasis is given to infra structure.
helath education, sanitation, agriculture, roads, ports, [sea and air]power projects..etc..
i hope we all enjoy better salary structure.
i hope better sports come..sachin make more centuries,saurav remains gritty.anil breaking warne record.sania winning more tornamnets[breaks into top twenty], anand remains in top,our hockey team wins champions trophy beating australia,holland,pakistan!
i hope sharooq and aamir does well. as well as saman ,akshay, ajay,saif. karrena,priyankarani,do well. abhishek comes out and becoem his own man.big b do more intesting projects as do aiswarya.
lets pray terrorists attacks are more often prevented than executed..and less lives are lost through it.
lets pray good monsoon comes this year..making every body happy.
i wish every body a new year..
i wish more posts in this column..in this new year.. prosperous, happy new year!
chakri

pakistan in turmoil
i think pakistan is digging its own grave.i think now we can see a fall out with terrorists....as a country it is now on tension wires. i hope it recovers. what we fear is like an iraq example to follow. i hope it does not occur..i pray god that all pakistanis wont suffer like us.

birth day

today is my birth day.i took some major decisions.i wanted to have my own business!i am planning about it.the sooner ..i plan it..the better i get it.i am reading successful self management.it is a nice book. it helped me to identify the focus through which i am living.i need to direct this focus.i need to have short term goals.few goals..at a time.becoz the journey is long.we can not predict every thing..right now. so i decided to take short term..goals.both professionally and personally.i must say that i am the best!

congratulations ISRO!

MY HEARTLY CONGRATULATIONS TO ISRO!i wish them all the best for future achievements also.you are symbol of hard work,dedication,beleif!it is amazing to see you functioning in a system which hardly acknowledges..the talent.you are truly a role model..for all of us!thank you very much isro!